One and a half years ago, I wrote my previous blog post.
Time has gone by.
It’s not that something remarkable or life-shattering happened to make me stop blogging. Other than life itself, I guess. I think I just reached that point I originally doubted would ever come…I had to look at my priorities, and this blog didn’t fit them at the time. I was just about to take my second state exams, got engaged just about ten days after that ominous “last” blog post, proceeded to plan my wedding(s) (state and church wedding) and finally, was transferred to a school 350 km away from my now-husband. I moved to said school, suddenly working full-time, suffering from terrible homesickness and a general discontent with my life and the school there. Oh, and I’m pregnant. Which brought on its own set of issues, especially concerning my jobs…but let’s not get into that (just yet!?).
Strange, that I would give up blogging. Nothing much happened.
Honestly, I haven’t come up with a recipe of my own in one and a half years. It’s not that I no longer enjoy cooking, but testing and coming up with ideas isn’t so exciting anymore. I love making recipes by my favourite bloggers, but really, I feel like I can’t contribute anything new.
What is to become of this blog, then? I have no idea. I do miss blogging sometimes, I really enjoyed it for one and a half years; it “carried” me through my first state exam and my first year of teacher’s training, it was my favourite hobby. I don’t know what to write about now, I guess that’s the issue. I feel like most of my thoughts or the events that take place in my life need to censored, at least up to a point…in part because I’m working for the state and who knows if the big boss is searching the web for blogs of teachers who actively denounce their power or decision-making?
Sharing great insight into my pregnancy is something I also feel like a) is very private and b) there are just. so. many. pregnancy. blogs. Really, there’s nothing “new”.
Does it have to be new, you ask? I don’t know. I think the reason people read blogs is a) because they are interested in the blogger, meaning they probably know them personally and the likelihood that they’ll already basically know everything the blogger writes is pretty high, and b) the topics the blogger discusses seem interesting.
So, you see my dilemna. I feel like writing, but I don’t know what about. My life seems pretty bland these days – in the best way. I am thoroughly enjoying being slowed down and I think I desparately needed it. But there is a sense of loss-of-purpose that comes with it, which I have no idea (yet) how I am going to fill.
The purpose of this blogpost? Don’t know if there is one. I think I might just be trying to get back into the feel of it and see if I still like it. Maybe I’ll just go back to sharing what I eat in a day tomorrow, or start recipe testing.
Hello, it’s me. I was wondering if after one and a half years you’d like to meet. And help me figure out what the heck I’m (going to be) doing with this blog.