I tried to write this post last night, but my laptop was apparently affected by my incredible weariness, and shut itself off twice as I was blogging, after which I simply gave up and went to bed. Attempted to, at least, but as I was brushing my teeth, my boyfriend came home (this was already quite late at night), and, eventhough I went to bed straight away, I kept waking up when he came into the bedroom to grab his PJs before taking a shower, and again when he actually came to bed. Which results in my brain being unbelievably useless today. I thought about being frustrated and panicking, but instead I started experimenting for a dessert I want to make on Christmas Day.
I feel like a really bad flu is nesting in my body. In German, we have a colloquial phrase: “I feel like I’m breeding something” is the go-to sentence when you aren’t feeling up to life and are worried that you’ll be sick soon. It sounds a bit pathetic when translated into English, after all, I’m not a crazy mother-hen (I mean, I can be, just ask my sister), but you get the picture.
I woke up very late this morning, and had a very tossy-turny type of night. As it’s Sunday, and we all know I love sleeping in on Sundays, I was in no hurry to jump out of bead. Instead, I sleepily rolled around towards my boyfriend, who had been tucking at my hair. You know what I saw when I pinched my eyes open just enough to see something?
I know, I know, I’ve not been keeping up with my usual amount of posts, I’m sorry! I have had a pretty calm weekend, but for most of it, I didn’t feel all that well, so I opted to just lay around on the sofa and drink tea. This morning, I got myself out of bed to go for a run, but my energy levels still must be running low, as the 6km run seemed nearly impossible to master. I have been craving cheese and meat like mad all of last week, which may have been to Aunt Irma visiting, but I have also been feeling very low energy in general. It may be due to the vegan eating, but I am still waiting for that “Oh my Gawd I feel so good” moment to kick in, which is why I’ll really try to continue until I reach 1 month.
Do you know the nursery rhyme “Apples and Bananas”? It’s basically a short song admitting your crazed love (or, rather, obsession) with two fruits, apples and banana, to be exact. It’s used in English classes quite frequently, mostly because you can substitute the “apples and bananas” with any other word pair in the English language. For example, you could sing…I like to eat, eat, eat, Apples and Bread…
Remember my post about Spicing Up Boring Study Sessions? Well, I have been eating those sandwiches for such a long time that I needed to come up with more ideas for toasts/breadspreads. So, I have been collecting a couple for the past two weeks, and I am so excited to be sharing them with you!
Looking back at this week, I think it’s fair to say that it has gone as planned. I didn’t want to feel as stressed out as I did last week (read this post), and I dare announce that I was successful! I managed to take a step back at times, and allow myself a break here and there. Obviously, I had to fight the urge of feeling guilty if I did take a break, but I guess it’s a work in progress.
I’m having a very low day. Not in a bad way, but I guess I realized that I need a bit of a break. I had my long set of classes last night, and will tutor this afternoon, followed by another class I’ll be teaching this evening…so I figure, it’s alright to take a break this morning. But, as you can see, I feel like I have to justify it nonetheless. My boyfriend is always calling me out on that. Apparently, I justify everything: why I am relaxing, why I am blogging, why I am eating one more slice of bread slathered in nutella…I guess it’s mostly justification for myself, not really for anybody else.
Remember how last week was not a great week for me? (To catch up, read this post.) Well, I am determined to have a better week, starting tomorrow! I am not 100% sure how I’ll go about that, but I figure by being resolut about not feeling as stressed, not allowing negative influences at university get to me (everyone is in freaking-out-about-studying-mode), and, exercising more than last week. I haven’t been sleeping perfectly, which is why I didn’t really go running last week – I was just constantly exhausted. In the hopes that I will feel less stressed, and therefore sleep better – I will be able to sports! That’s logical, right? I bet you are laughing at me right now, but having the resolution of having a better week beats worrying about the week, so there you go.
I am traveling this weekend because I was invited to give a speech at a function. I am very proud about being invited, therefore I have tried to mention that in almost every post today. For those of you who actually read all those posts – thank you so much for being so interested, and sorry about all the references to my awesome opportunity of being allowed to give that speech!